Simin's memories~~~

Hello, the time now is 2.30am so yeah
here wishing you a Merry Christmas Eve!

mind sharing what will you be doing today? haha just curious lah.
actually here in Singapore, Asia lah, i had never really went through
a truly Christmas celebration at all. haha. all i know about Christmas
is eating turkey and honey baked ham, drink, sing and rip presents.
hahaha. yes yes?

i have 1 present(: 1 and only present!!!

anyway this few days in dad office was really dead bored. i took out Eclipse to read. hehe yes it the the 3rd book to Twilight Saga. overall the book is quite draggy and dry. the characters communicates a lot and left me speed reading it as if glance through as i flip the pages over. till the last few chapters, the story pick up a little and got me excited to read on. well, because it is the part whereby i had been waiting since the start of the chapters which is Victoria's arrival to get Bella life. but the author wrote this part in just a chapter with Victoria in Edward's hand together with their enemy-ally the werewolves' Seth. wtf lor. preceding to that chapter was Edward and Jacob wrangling. kind of funny too. i chuckled while reading it though. mmm, i'm finishing the book in countable chapters. anticipating Breaking Dawn. hope it will be alluring.

alright the time is ticking nearer and nearer to 3am. omfg.

Farewell.

my instincts were accurate.
and the wish i wished yesterday
was granted. i wished for peace.

this morning, grandma had severe breathing difficulties. the doctor and nurses gave her a switch to a bigger and stronger oxygen mask for her. i guess she is really tired trying to stay on earth, beside us and its time she can go after so much. thus she decided to give way. she decided to stop struggling and let go. she passed away at 12.20pm in that hospital. i'm really mentally and emotionally prepared for this. however i couldnt believe it when i received my sister's call about her death from the hospital. my heart thumped wild and heavily. my heart was in my mouth. and so what? what can i do again? i felt really helpless. now she is gone, nothing can possibly make up for that. and Life goes on. its a cycle; birth and death.

left class immediately and met cousin Serena.
we waited tensely for any oncoming cabs but
no luck. we waited for 15 minutes and at last
we got onto a cab we dialed. the both of us were
panting in the cab after we ran over the bridge.

reached grandma's bedroom ward and saw all my aunts and uncles with teared face. awww... the moment i saw her still lying in the bed, that same position as the night before, i was a little relieved because i know i know she is free. free from all the drug, free from all the tubes and needles that poked her and of course free from all pain. then i couldnt resist my tears anymore, letting a tear rolled down my cheek. touched her, she was cold. even her forehead was cold. its really terrifying to feel that coldness on her.

after her body was taken away we left the hospital.

i believe she has gone for good, in peace like what i wished.
she probably met grandfather in the netherworld now. after
approximately 20 years? mmm thats good grandfather brought
her to a better place with no more sufferings and pain :')

To Grandma.
though you seldom appear in my life or rather i seldom visit you
but what the memories with you will be strongly etched to my
heart forever. i can remember the days when you are still sharp.
the food you cooked, the teocheow words you spoke, your smile
and your laughter. i am sorry i cant communicate back with you too.
Goodbye granny, like i say i will remember you, ever(((: rest in peace.

arh alright i need to sleep now.
tomorrow's going to be a tiring day.
rituals for grandma and Marketing UT.

Farewell.